it's been a while..

sigh. midterms are comingggg. a;sldkfj hate going to school on thursdays cause parking starts to become a bitch starting at like 10..and class doesnt even start til 12:35 for me so basically i have to go there hella early just to find parking. so gayy. but whatever. spend that time doing other homework. so many things coming up. a;sldkfj next wednesday is going to be so busy -___- start school at 8:40 and end at 12. then have to go to this edd meeting at 1 and hopefully it ends before 4 because thats when i have to go doctors to fill out paper for surgery on friday. super sigh. hate those days where theres just too much to do )= well looking forward to tomorrow because boyfriend and i are going to pick up springs for my car. yayy finally <3>

heres something for you stupid little girl: you can wait all your fucking life for that day to come cause it's not going to happen. and don't think that over time im going to forget about this shit cause i dont forgive&forget easily.

and this is for you too.

YOU'RE SO STUPID. you want to talk? lets talk. aim? phone? in person? choose wisely & just prepare yourself.

Another Day At Work...

sigh, usually mondays go by pretty fast but today its going by a tad bit slow. i only have a month left of working full time for this job and im off to find another job. saddd. its gna be hard finding a job too with the economy all fucked up and shit but ohwell. just gotta try and hope for the best.
well thursday night, the genius bf had an idea to go pick up his body kit in la. he decided that we would leave at around 12:30am and we got there at like around 5:30am. we didnt have to meet up with the guy until 8:45am!!! we had no where to sleep so we drove around for the longest time until we met up with the guy who had the body kit. i drove home on the way back and it was the longest and most boring drive i've experienced in my life. i was falling asleep while driving too -_- hella bad. haha it was hella hot and we went in a pick up truck with no ac. aaah it was horriblee. haha but anything for my baby <3 then when we got back home, i went to go pick up my paycheck. then back to adams and knocked out all the way til night time. stayed at adams place for the weekend.
Adam and i chilled with tommy and kelvin and these boys always have something to say after every sentence hahaha went to play pool and stopped by barcode. then michael needed help working on his car so we dropped them off and headed to michaels house. jenn and peter stopped by and then tulio came out of his house so we all just talked while adam and michael were working on the car. after they were done, me adam and michael went to eat at outback. had to treat him out for not remembering his birthday =X ahha well this nigga was fiending for a heineken the whole time. he even asked the waitress for it but then she asked for ID. stuuuupid. haha thennn on sunday me, the bf and my brother were playing cards and gambling with our quarters in our piggy banks. even though our banks arent pigs..his is of some person and i had my hello kitty one that i painted (=
anyways, i think i might just stop here and try to do some work. sighhhh. -_- laate.

Get Over It.

Can you guys be any more immature? Saying shit like that? Go find some other important shit to talk about. Sick and tired of hearing stupid ass comments.




--No looking back now.

Ridiculous.

How about you learn how to respect people first and then we'll talk. From what I know, you sound like a straight up hypocrite. I don't want to waste my time talking about you, but I just have to let it out. You showed no respect from the first day I heard about you. I would tell you to put yourself in my situation but you're probably too stupid to even understand. " I didn't do anything wrong! " Who are you tryna kid bitch. Are you that stupid to not know what you did? Think you're hella cool doing whatever you want. When someone tells you to get out, then get the fuck out. Don't just sit there. I know I can be a bitch, but that's only if I have to and you pretty much crossed that line. So I suggest you hide if you ever see me and you better hope you see me first. Girls like you belong underneath my tires, not in the backseat of my car. Thanks.


Well on to more important things to talk about. Jesse's birthday was like a week ago and he had a party at Bryans. Stopped by for a bit before I had to go home to rest for English&Math Placement Test the next morning. It felt nice to see everyone again. Last time I saw most of them was graduation day. I must say things have changed but for the better or worse you can say. Just depends on how I look at it. I try not to really think about these things but just have random moments at night when I'm laying in bed. I realized that I missed Michael Nguyen's birthday though. For some reason my phone said his birthday was on the 21st, which is a week later than his actual birthday. I'm really sorry! I'll make it up to you though..Happy Belated Birthday if that makes it any better )= I've been really lagging on college. I don't know if I'm on the right track or behind, but it's different not having anyone to push you to do whats needed to get done, or remind you about dates and such things. All I've been really doing is working. Work everyday from 7:30 to 4:30. Sigh, have to sit here everyday for 8 hours. Pretty boring job if you ask me. But gotta do it in order to make money. I'll probably blog more later but its just been a while so thought I'd update. (=

finally done.

after the 4 years of bullshit in highschool, finally got through it. have to say i cheated my way through my classes and its probably going to hurt me later in the long run but at least i graduated. a lot has changed these past 4 years but im glad things turned out the way they did. met new people, and got closer to some. senioritis hit me pretty hard towards the end. summers starting and its just gna be straight up work. 8 hours everyday..sigh. sitting in front of this computer is already killing me. pretty fucking boring. its only 2 something right now and i dont get off til 5. 3 more hours of this. tryna kill time by blogging but theres not much to say. tryna save money to spend on my car and road trip with the boyfriend and maybe others <3. just tryna get away from everything here for a while. these past two days me and adam have been renting movies from the red box and watching them. haha we watched gran torino, hes just not that into you, bride wars and harold and kumar. gran torino was good until it got to the end. hella disappointing cause how the movie ended sucked ass. hes just not that into you was alright, was starting to fall asleep cause it got late and i had to wake up early for work the next morning. bride wars was pretty cool. a lot of the scenes were predictable tho hahah and then harold and kumar was funny. just that..i fell asleep hahah always falling asleep watching the second movie. hmm. tryna think of things to say on this thing but theres nothing really. i guess i'll just stop it here. a;sldkfj laaaate

Everythings just perfect.

Lately, life has been the greatest. Some little things get in the way here and there but other than that, life's great. Never thought this day would come but I can actually see myself being much happier. Looking foward for summer to come! shit better be crackinnnn haha been thinking when i should get my eyebrow pierced and i want it done sooon! gna go with jean to get her lip pierced too. haha get in trouble while you can! haha (; also tryna get my dove tattoo tho. sighh summer will be where i get my money. working full time. but it'll all pay off cause last years summer was just all bad. all the money went to stupid cheer. -_- ohwell. not much to really blog about so i'll just end it with pictures from prom (=

update.

its starting to get hellaaaaa hoootttt! but the weathers supposed to cool down later on this week. well on friday cox had a party and it was crackinnnn. everyone needed that day to just chill after everything that happened<3>im excited to go to the beach again on thursday. hopefully the weathers not hella gay like last time when we ditched school to go..ahha still need to do stuff for prommmm . need to buy heels, fix my dress, make appointment for hair & makeup, go with adam to get his tux fitted, pick out corsage & boutonniere and alllaaaaa that. proms bout to be hella fun tho! and then of course party after! (=

losing time.

fuckkk whats wrong with meee! a;sldkfj how is it that proms coming up hella soon and i still dont know who im going with. is this shit supposed to be karma? tickets are on sale monday too but we'll just have to see. well i was basically dying on friday. hahah fuckk. i dont even know why we did that shit. spent my friday night in bed sleeping..hahah never again jean! a;sldkfj shits too crazy. hella wasted my friday night on that shit. saturday had to wake up early to go traffic school. that was hella gay too. tried not falling asleep cause you get kicked out if you do haha so on my lunch break which was like 45 minutes..i went in my car and slept. -_- thats how fucked up i was friday. then i went home at 2 and thought i should get out of the house so i could feel better. went to the bank, picked up jean met up with jamie at juice city. we hookah'd later at jon's shop. that was pretty cooo. peach & watermelon. mmmmm. (= then at around 10, me jean and jamie went to jean nguyen's house to meet up with the rest. didnt do anything there so i cut out home. might study today for gov but...not so sure how that'll go..haha fucking failing that class right now. so sadddd. a;sldkfj
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there comes a time where you learn to start growing up and start being more mature. has it ever crossed your mind that if you act your age, everything wont be as bad as you think they are? sure there are times where everything gets rocky but nga chill for a bit. as much as you want everything to go your way, it cant. you just gotta learn how to accept that. be more open minded bout everything and not just live in your own world. trippin out over small things arent helping anything. just makes everything more complicated. didnt see this one coming tho.

Day Off.

So yesterday was pretty coo. woke up and didnt feel like going to school. texted jean to see if she was gna go or not and she said she wont go if i dont. sooo since sc had that day off..we decided to just not go and have our own day off too. haha karlaritis hitting us pretty bad. so i picked jean up in front of the school and we went to vinces house. then john came over and we all went to peanuts. after that we went back to vinces and everyone started coming over slowly and started the bbq. watched the decent. that movies pretty nasty...haha thennn i took a nap for a bit cause my head was hurting. woke up and we all cut out. went to scb and played pool for a bit. dropped tony and vince back off at vinces house then jan & moo back at jans.
Today..tried catching up in school cause im falling behind and grades are sorta slippin but s'all good cause everything will be coo in the end. a;sldkfj was pretty irritated the whole day today. afterschool went to starbucks on dixon with jamie and karla. stupid little bugs flying everywhere nshiiit. -_- chilled at my house for an hour then went to work for 2 hours. work went by pretty fast so that was good. then met back up with karla at juice city. chilled there for a bit then went home. sighhh..looking back on everything that happened so far is pretty stressful. try my best to not let it show but sometimes its just too much. proms getting closer and closer but yet im hella behind in all the stuff i need to get done.like maybe first of all..find a date?hah. fuck my life a;sldkfj its whatever. senior years supposed to be the best right? sikeeeee. cant wait til i graduate. thats just all im waiting for right about now. birthdays coming up too but i have no idea what im doing bout that either. its the day after prom..gotta throw a party somewhere but where? ahhhh feel like im bout to go crazy with everything going on. guess i'll end it here. laaaaaate.

JAMBA JUICE

had my math final today. took 4 hours a;sldkfj it was harder this year than it was last year..but whatever. sick of school alreadyyy. afterschool did the usual. went to the upper parking lot but security came so everyone had to cut out. went to jamba juice with jean and jamie and ran into caseara there. most of the girls decided not to go to cheer practice today cause its pointless soo i decided not to go either! haha only 4 people showed up. fuck itttt. hella tired of cheer too. its supposed to be over anyways. thenn we saw jenann at jamba juice and she chilled with us. we spent 2 hours sitting at jamba juice talking bout prom? haha fucking hella shwamp. jean got all the guys talkin bout it tho i bet. hahaha trippin everyone out nshiiiit. the weathers hella gay. today was nice but its gna start raining now?? a;sldkfj i guesssssss.

i dont even knowwww.

sooo yesterday was a pretty random friday. afterschool..did the usual. chilled in the parking lot for a bit. some of them went to blaze so me and jean decided to go somewhere else. didnt know where we were going so we just started driving. saw karla behind us and she was heading to wingstop so we went there with her toooo. then john jan and moo came and we just chilled in johns car. started drawing all over his car and stole his license place and the headrest for the chairs nshit. hahaha me and jean were gna cut and go chill with sc boys for a bit and we still had johns car shit. then out of the cuts we see karla hella running with the other headrest and johns just chasing after her. hahah this bitchhh. <3
today im bout to go dress shopping with some of the girlsss. fucking prom is in a month and i have no idea what the fuck im doing or who ima go with. hate prom time. hella stressful. all the guys are pretty whack this year too. cause a lot of girls are still dateless nshit. shwampssss. but its cooo. hopefully things will work out by the time prom comes. found the dress i wanted. its like 200$ a;sldkfj sighhh. its whateverrr. once summer comes i'll be more smart about money since i'll have money. haha aitee then LAAAAAAATE (=

sighhhhhh just not happy anymore.

so these past couple weeks have been nothing but shit. im really done dealing with that kinda shit now. no change even though it was said that you did. but its coo cause i already told you once you're ready to be my friend i'm here. trojan olympics was alriiighttt. hella stuffy and hot in there tho. we tied with juniors? SHWAMPPPP. was looking foward to tonys but some stuff came up and it didnt start til later but by then it was too late so had to cut out home. went home and watched the last house on the left. it was pretty coo. didnt sleep til 3 and thenn at like 7 something i got a call from karla saying dillon left with her keys in his car. haha so i got up and went to her. but by the time i got to her she already said dillon was coming back. so i just chilled with her til dillon came. then i went homeee and slept some moreee til now. a;sldkfj still pretty tired but ima end this here.laaaaate.

just too much.

this week has got to be the toughest by far. things got into a big ass mess. i dont know how many times i have to say what i want to say to have it get to you. i honestly cant stand being ignored and walked away from all the time.no matter how many times i say it, it still happens. ive been trying for the past 3 days and i get nothing back. you keep pushing everything away and making things more complicated than it should be. who are you in a relationship with anyways? i cant be in one talking to myself all the time. hearing what you gotta say from everyone else except you. when the fuck do i ever ditch school? i didnt even ditch on fucking senior cut day but yet i did today. i felt hella stupid for doing it because whatd i get out of it? already falling behind in my all my classes and shit but it didnt even matter to you at that point. people came to you checkin up on you and its like you didnt even care. everyone was worried but seems like all you were thinking about was yourself. i feel like i have nothing left in me to get my points across anymore. its like everything i say goes in one ear and out the other. im through saying what i gotta say to you. i tried everything i can but seeing as how things went down the way they did..why waste my time talking. so its all on you now, whenever you're ready. i hope that this is the only time that me and everyone else is ever going to have to deal with this because all this was honestly just too much. everyone only say what you dont want to hear cause they care, so accept it and listen. all the threats gotta go and maturitys gotta show.

WHAT THE FUCKKK!

UGH! am i fucking cursed or what. science camp was a bitch cause i got these disrespectful kids in my cabin. they got in trouble everyday and shit. but whatever thats over. now i gotta catch up in school and everything. sighh, the only thing i enjoyed at science camp was counselors time. -_- haha well todayyy i went to the post office today with lilybeth to turn in a calgrant paper..we were sitting in the car writing and i heard a fucking BOOOM. this old lady fucking opened her door and hit my side mirror. ;ALKDJFA;DKLSFJASL;KFJ HELLA SHWAMP! she was bout to get back into her car and leave too. the fuckkk. i was hella pissed. so now my side mirror is scratched. 'Young lady, its not a big deal. i didnt mean to open my door on purpose and hit yours' WELL YOU HIT IT ANYWAYS! ughhhh just cause theres no fucking damage on your car. GAAAAAY.

weathers going craaazy!

thought i'd update since i havent in a while. not feelin this whole sunny/rain shit but what can i do. one minute its raining like crazy, the next its fucking sunny as fuck. haha well yesterday stayed home the whole day. started to get ready at 5..thinking we were leaving at 7 but plans got change so had to wait even longer to get out. then john finally picked me up at like 8. went to go pick up jan and moo and off to dinnerrr. we went to bjs and it was cooo. never been there before! food was yummy and ofcourse the pizooookie.mmm (: i'll upload pictures once moo uploads them. haha
one week of break and then one week of science camp! cant wait!