sighhhhhh just not happy anymore.

so these past couple weeks have been nothing but shit. im really done dealing with that kinda shit now. no change even though it was said that you did. but its coo cause i already told you once you're ready to be my friend i'm here. trojan olympics was alriiighttt. hella stuffy and hot in there tho. we tied with juniors? SHWAMPPPP. was looking foward to tonys but some stuff came up and it didnt start til later but by then it was too late so had to cut out home. went home and watched the last house on the left. it was pretty coo. didnt sleep til 3 and thenn at like 7 something i got a call from karla saying dillon left with her keys in his car. haha so i got up and went to her. but by the time i got to her she already said dillon was coming back. so i just chilled with her til dillon came. then i went homeee and slept some moreee til now. a;sldkfj still pretty tired but ima end this here.laaaaate.

just too much.

this week has got to be the toughest by far. things got into a big ass mess. i dont know how many times i have to say what i want to say to have it get to you. i honestly cant stand being ignored and walked away from all the time.no matter how many times i say it, it still happens. ive been trying for the past 3 days and i get nothing back. you keep pushing everything away and making things more complicated than it should be. who are you in a relationship with anyways? i cant be in one talking to myself all the time. hearing what you gotta say from everyone else except you. when the fuck do i ever ditch school? i didnt even ditch on fucking senior cut day but yet i did today. i felt hella stupid for doing it because whatd i get out of it? already falling behind in my all my classes and shit but it didnt even matter to you at that point. people came to you checkin up on you and its like you didnt even care. everyone was worried but seems like all you were thinking about was yourself. i feel like i have nothing left in me to get my points across anymore. its like everything i say goes in one ear and out the other. im through saying what i gotta say to you. i tried everything i can but seeing as how things went down the way they did..why waste my time talking. so its all on you now, whenever you're ready. i hope that this is the only time that me and everyone else is ever going to have to deal with this because all this was honestly just too much. everyone only say what you dont want to hear cause they care, so accept it and listen. all the threats gotta go and maturitys gotta show.

WHAT THE FUCKKK!

UGH! am i fucking cursed or what. science camp was a bitch cause i got these disrespectful kids in my cabin. they got in trouble everyday and shit. but whatever thats over. now i gotta catch up in school and everything. sighh, the only thing i enjoyed at science camp was counselors time. -_- haha well todayyy i went to the post office today with lilybeth to turn in a calgrant paper..we were sitting in the car writing and i heard a fucking BOOOM. this old lady fucking opened her door and hit my side mirror. ;ALKDJFA;DKLSFJASL;KFJ HELLA SHWAMP! she was bout to get back into her car and leave too. the fuckkk. i was hella pissed. so now my side mirror is scratched. 'Young lady, its not a big deal. i didnt mean to open my door on purpose and hit yours' WELL YOU HIT IT ANYWAYS! ughhhh just cause theres no fucking damage on your car. GAAAAAY.

weathers going craaazy!

thought i'd update since i havent in a while. not feelin this whole sunny/rain shit but what can i do. one minute its raining like crazy, the next its fucking sunny as fuck. haha well yesterday stayed home the whole day. started to get ready at 5..thinking we were leaving at 7 but plans got change so had to wait even longer to get out. then john finally picked me up at like 8. went to go pick up jan and moo and off to dinnerrr. we went to bjs and it was cooo. never been there before! food was yummy and ofcourse the pizooookie.mmm (: i'll upload pictures once moo uploads them. haha
one week of break and then one week of science camp! cant wait!

ups&downs.

SOOOOOOOOOOO where should i start. friday spent time with the group doing secret santa stuff. got a 40$ giftcard to forever, a puzzle, and everclear! hahah everclears just too crazy so i gave it away. then saturdayy woke up, went to ortho, went home, and went to go pick up my rsx baby! <3333 made my freaking day. but after that john and bryan came by and checked it out then we rolled to safeway and lucky to pick up some food for the bbq. picked up lilybeth drove her to get her schedule and went to michael do's. SUNDAY. what a day. so met up with jamie at noahs then ate there for a bit. chilled at juice city for a couple of hours and then went to eat with my dad brother and cousin. went back to juice city after and went home for family thing. after that i rolled through to minh do's party. wasnt really feelin the fact that there were hella heads so me and lilybeth went to jamba juice and met them back up at alex's house. out of the cuts hella heads just started coming in -_- but whatever. that night was just all bad. i guess i just blew up. a;sldkfj

CRAZY ASS NIGHT

So yesterday was Jamie's 18th birthday. so me her and lilybeth went to go chill at fantasia for a bit. then me and lilybeth went to go buy her birthday present and i went to jamies house after. chilled there til everyone came and watched her montage video. so cuute. later on went to clydes with michael to buy drinks. drank HELLLAAAAA last night. hahah i was HELLA gone cause karla said ' take a swig til i say stop if you love me!' that shit fucked me up. she was too buzz to remember to say stop! a;sldkfj so i started yacking hellaaaa. and then my brother had to come and pick me up and carry me out. love him forever <33 im surprised my mom didnt trip out when she was talking to me this morning though. but ima chill off drinking for awhile. even though i was fucked up last night, it was hella fun <3

A day full of waiting...

So i woke up and did my usual thing then i left to go pick up karla for school. School went by okay. listened to my ipod the whole day. that thing runs out of battery so quickly. sad. then afterschool i picked up my brother so we could go to the doctors to get shots. tell me why the fucking wait was an hour and we only went in there for like 5 minutes -___- a;sldkfj but after that was over, i dropped him off at home went to go pick up karla at dillons and went off to go get our nails done. yayy. getting my nails done always make me happy haha (: but the fucking lady is hella stupid. my finger was bleeding so she tried stopping it with this alcohol thing, and it wouldnt stop bleeding...so she decided to fucking put this superglue shit on it! it was stinging like a bitch, i swear. but whateverrrrrr. thennn me and karla went to clucku's or should i say ' smokeeaters ' after and we had the hardest time eating cause we didnt want to touch it with our fingers loll but we finally gave in and got messy. but after i went to safeway to get a lemon for my mom..lol that shit costs a fucking dollar. then i dropped off karla and then went home.
went online and checked out how much i had in my bank account, and it fucking said i had 0.00 in my checkings so i knew something was wrong. and it said i overdrafted!!! but then i guess i have this protection thing where it'll take it from my savings, and it only needed 6 cents.. weird. hella scared me thoughhh a;sldkfj but i guess thats all for todayy. hopefully everything will get better a;s;dlkjas;dkfjasdklfjasdfljkdlasfj (: