sighhhhhh just not happy anymore.

so these past couple weeks have been nothing but shit. im really done dealing with that kinda shit now. no change even though it was said that you did. but its coo cause i already told you once you're ready to be my friend i'm here. trojan olympics was alriiighttt. hella stuffy and hot in there tho. we tied with juniors? SHWAMPPPP. was looking foward to tonys but some stuff came up and it didnt start til later but by then it was too late so had to cut out home. went home and watched the last house on the left. it was pretty coo. didnt sleep til 3 and thenn at like 7 something i got a call from karla saying dillon left with her keys in his car. haha so i got up and went to her. but by the time i got to her she already said dillon was coming back. so i just chilled with her til dillon came. then i went homeee and slept some moreee til now. a;sldkfj still pretty tired but ima end this here.laaaaate.

just too much.

this week has got to be the toughest by far. things got into a big ass mess. i dont know how many times i have to say what i want to say to have it get to you. i honestly cant stand being ignored and walked away from all the time.no matter how many times i say it, it still happens. ive been trying for the past 3 days and i get nothing back. you keep pushing everything away and making things more complicated than it should be. who are you in a relationship with anyways? i cant be in one talking to myself all the time. hearing what you gotta say from everyone else except you. when the fuck do i ever ditch school? i didnt even ditch on fucking senior cut day but yet i did today. i felt hella stupid for doing it because whatd i get out of it? already falling behind in my all my classes and shit but it didnt even matter to you at that point. people came to you checkin up on you and its like you didnt even care. everyone was worried but seems like all you were thinking about was yourself. i feel like i have nothing left in me to get my points across anymore. its like everything i say goes in one ear and out the other. im through saying what i gotta say to you. i tried everything i can but seeing as how things went down the way they did..why waste my time talking. so its all on you now, whenever you're ready. i hope that this is the only time that me and everyone else is ever going to have to deal with this because all this was honestly just too much. everyone only say what you dont want to hear cause they care, so accept it and listen. all the threats gotta go and maturitys gotta show.

WHAT THE FUCKKK!

UGH! am i fucking cursed or what. science camp was a bitch cause i got these disrespectful kids in my cabin. they got in trouble everyday and shit. but whatever thats over. now i gotta catch up in school and everything. sighh, the only thing i enjoyed at science camp was counselors time. -_- haha well todayyy i went to the post office today with lilybeth to turn in a calgrant paper..we were sitting in the car writing and i heard a fucking BOOOM. this old lady fucking opened her door and hit my side mirror. ;ALKDJFA;DKLSFJASL;KFJ HELLA SHWAMP! she was bout to get back into her car and leave too. the fuckkk. i was hella pissed. so now my side mirror is scratched. 'Young lady, its not a big deal. i didnt mean to open my door on purpose and hit yours' WELL YOU HIT IT ANYWAYS! ughhhh just cause theres no fucking damage on your car. GAAAAAY.